Used to think that good friends are easy to get. Just treat people good and they will treat you good. that somehow just don't work......especially when I am different from the normal guy out there in the neighbourhood. Been going through a few good friendships with my so-called best friends but somehow I just wrecked the whole things up again and again.
They just find me odd by being too good to them and doubting me sexuality.....i do not wish to lie to them but somehow i am just not ready to reveal who i really am. Especially being brought up in a traditional-minded family and Islamic country.....The chinese in me also do not let me have the courage to do that. I do not wish to be treated differently by the people around me...not to mention at my work place where there are so many homophobics and the stories of people who got their lives in ruin after coming out of closet. Just like when I told one of my best friends back then, he feels totally weird to be with me again.
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