It's almost 5 months since I last contacted my best friend. Since then, we never talk or even see each other even in msn or yahoo messenger. I do not know why we could really end up like this.... Maybe it's just very wrong for a gay guy to fall in love with his best friend.
At first, I also din expect that I would love someone like him. But the more I hang out with him together with my other housemates, i started to have feelings toward him. When he treats me nicer than his other friends, the more i feel liking him......
Things just don't happen the way I would like it to be at times......I thought I could just take him as my normal friend but I feel scared to lose him. When he started to piss off with me for demanding too much from him and talking bad about me with his friends, i felt damn sad when I found it out. I admit that sumtimes i do demand a lot from him but on the other side, i will never show a no bother face to him whenever he needs me......in studies or watever. Even when i come to work in Singapore, I never complain about calling though i am almost broke......
Now and then, looking back at our pictures....i really hope that i could get back together with him and the rest and perhaps start to take the friendship more lightly...at least it wun come to an extent like this. I really do not wish to lose a best friend just like that......
I am sorry... (if only you can hear me :( ......)
Why you could never understand me or even try to listen to me?
How could I ever tell you about who i really am when i am not sure of myself....?
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